nineteen
HAPPY FIRST DAY OF SPRING + HAPPY INTERNATIONAL HAPPINESS DAY! The anticipation of this day has had me reflecting a lot about the last year, but more specifically the last couple of months. Coming into this semester, I was feeling incredibly discouraged by my coursework + future at Purdue. It’s not that I haven’t enjoyed it here so far, but there are sometimes where I would just much rather be home surrounded by the people I enjoy the most. I had lost focus of where I was going + had found myself n a big creative and emotional rut that I had no idea how to get out of.
Not only that, eighteen was weird. I graduated high school + moved to a school 10 hours away from home. I made new friends, + I lost some too . It sucked sometimes, but I think that's just how this season of life goes.
Today marks the beginning of spring: the season of rebirth + new growth. As I started to get really excited for today, I realized that maybe it's just something about having a birthday on the first day of spring that puts me in a better mindset. Maybe it also has to do with the fact that it's international day of happiness?
OR, better yet, it's me just making the best of this mess I call life.
I’ve been feeling much better about the things I have going for me right now and I think little bit of a new sense of direction going forward. I'm enjoying my classes a lot more. I'm creating a mini little family with my friends from UKirk (a PC(USA) ministry for college students). I'm also really enjoying what the work I'm doing with Chloee + Megan at the radio station. Overall, I've learned in the past year who is worth keeping around.
Having a spring gives me a chance to really refresh my perspective + restart, but I don't think that can only happen once a year. It's something that we all need to be working on all of the time.
In this next year, I want don't want to dwell on the sucky situations for too long. I want to reflect on them, learn from them, and then move on to other things.
Here's to being more intentional.
Here's to focusing on happiness.
Here's to new experiences.
Here's to new memories.
Here's to nineteen.
xo,
Teressa